are people who we think we are? definitely no, but sometimes, just when you think you're knowing someone better, a burst in the bubble slaps you in the face, telling you to wake up, that you will never, ever know anyone as they truly are.
i am struggling to deny that, because i want to believe that there are people who are their true selves. i want to believe that there are people who do not put on multiple masks to deceive you into thinking they are who they want you to see. or maybe, its because i don't want to admit that i have failed to see people as they truly are.

how apt, i was just talking about what do we have to know to know a person in my previous post.
hur-hur.



within a space of a month, things have changed so drastically, and i expect, more changes in the coming days. i can't believe how things have become now, and i wonder, and wonder, was there something i could have done to avoid this situation today? indeed, it was between two other people, but it was something i was clearly aware of, and maybe, if i had interfered and help mend things, maybe things won't be so ugly? though it might be better for them to sort things out themselves..
then again, other people have interfered, worse still, i am aware of their intentions, and i know this is all going to make things worst. and i feel ten times more helpless now, because i couldnt bring myself to tell them please don't do it.

knowing too many things is torturous.

not knowing is better than knowing; knowing and not being able to do anything about it makes me so helpless.


God, please, tell me what to do.