hide me.

dont ask anymore. i know, i know, band got bronze. hur-hur. disappointed, really, but then again, those girls would be feeling ten times worse than i do. esp the sec 4s, who've got only this one syf in their entire sec school life. at least for most of them, cos the last time we didnt send in a lot of them. oh wells.

it came as a shock, but i soon realise that i didnt expect much in the first place anyway. i believe you girls have put in your best, but sometimes, sometimes.. its not that i'm biased against him, but i feel that this somehow might be because of him. ya, you make the band seem soooo good under you, make it seem like they're doing so much better under you, but this results just prove me right.
and i guess its a time for reflection once again.. do you think you deserve more than this? do you think you've worked hard enough? do you think you could have done better on your part?
sometimes, we wait till its too late before we realised we should have done this and that, but really, its too late.. we should have worked harder, we should have practised more, we should not have wasted time on whatsoever unimportant things. no point thinking about it now, isn't it? and dont blame the judges please.

what's done is done, look forward now.

nat: everyone's upset to hear about the results, but by God's way, perhaps, perhaps, this may push the juniors to work even harder if they have not been doing so.

have to get back to work, no more mulling over this, i hope. but somehow, i know my mind wont just stop here, it will continue churning those thoughts of syf, 21st july, 13th April, the heart-wrenching moments when our results were released, that feeling of agony. and today, i can almost feel the stab that those girls must have felt. it must be so painful, so very painful...

i miss sir.