whoa, it has been long since my last entry.. but now that its the hols and i finally have a little teeny weeny bit of free time, i'll rant.

spent the whole day out yest, with maths faculty test and lecture in the morning. went out with bowling pals in the afternoon and only reached home just before eleven. we had lunch at the village at heeren, then we headed to cineleisure cos mo wanted to watch the messenger. but it was at seven, hours away. and i got dragged to kbox because hin fan badly wanted to go. =( alas, at least i got subidised. =D *thanks!

faculty tests are finally over, and though i really studied for chem re-test, i think i failed it again. no. i dont think, i am certain. after glancing through the questions i thought to myself, there goes all the studying to try to do well. i've disappointed myself again and again, even for o's and chinese, i dont want to disappoint myself again for A's. no, not anymore. maths test yesterday was fine, thankfully. i could do the paper, and for once i was so calm and cool about a paper.. and it really felt great. i know that i studied, i know how to do, i will pass. i hope.. i dont want to go for some maths camp. like ewwww. but then again, there will be those careless mistakes when i do p&c, either missing out something or adding something extra. that's why i barely passed the previous p&c test even though i thought i could do well. did not multiply this, divide that, etc. oh man. knowing that i failed bio and chem, i can only pin hopes on maths econs and gp. of which, we'll probably get back next week.

mass production on sat for the publicity event, making those little gifts to be given out, i really understand how tough it was for those factory workers in the past when there weren't machines. and we had the comfort of air-con and comfy chairs. they had none. prolly a hard plastic chair and a fan. and long hours.. we mass produced for 4 hours only and didn't want to continue anymore, what more their 8am-6pm everyday.

well, life's tough and we can only be thankful for the education we have. yada yada, we must make use of this WONderful opportunity that many poor people in other countries don't have, study hard, and get a good job. we all know the importance of education in getting us a job, but the main question is, what good does it do to our character, our moral values, our society? it the quest for higher qualifications, these are all sacrificed. there are people who will do anything to get them into a good school. yes, you've probably heard of this before, that people actually donate large sums of money to get their children into a good school. but this only makes people think that money really is everything, and is this not bribery? i pay you, you give my child a place in this school. and there's all that back-stabbing and lies one bring to the teacher or the principal, to get rid of that competitor. i believe there are students who stoop that low, lies that get you into trouble, lies that only goes to show intolerance for one another. and it is because everything is so competitive.


is that the society we want?


and because of the big deal of holding that certificate, the qualifications, people spend their whole life studying, studying, and studying. and you look back in life when you are on your deathbed, holding on to those dear certificates of yours, and realise that all you did was to study. you have no one with you, no friends, no family, no memories of a wonderful and fulfilling life. no photos, simply certificates. no companion, simply books. one day, the world may become just like that.

in this rat-raced society, what really is important? to me, it is having family and friends, having lived a worth-while life, having done so many exciting things, having travelled the world. to live the life i want. yes, no money = luxuries of life, but the extent of happiness differs from person to person. middle income people can still be happier than those extremely rich people. i don't need to be loaded, i will be satisfied with being in the middle income group. as long as i have food to eat, and place i call home, family and friends, and money to spare, i'm contented. oh, add in a car to drive. haha. i know money will never be enough... but what is the use of earning and earning and earning but end up having no time for social life? that's sad, really sad. money doesn't buy you true love and friendship. and most importantly, a career that you really want. looking at career opportunities now, people tell me that this is better, that is better, because i can earn more... but i reply, sorry, i know that this is better, but i want o do what i want. i dont want to look back in life and regret. i make my choices, i dont want to regret. and i dont want to base my career choices on the income it brings. that to me is too materialistic. it satisfies your material wants, but not everything else. being happy and healthy is the utmost importance.

too long now, but it should make up for the lag. =P
i do not know if i can even reach the point of having a career i love, but for now, i have to A's out of the way. and that means getting those school work, projects, and studying done. sigh. and 3-hour training tomorrow, i hope i can survive that.

ciao.


all the time when this is 25 minutes too late

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