i've got so many things on my to-do list i'm freaking out. the sudden influx of events, TESTS, cca and homework is killing me, i have no idea how i'll survive till the publicity event is over. 18th march. and i have maths faculty test in a week or so, chem spa trial, bio spa, class tests every two days and that means an average of 2 and a half tests a weeks. so that means i have to juggle tests, homework, cca, and the publicity event all at the same time. ho-hum.

which reminds me, the chinese A level results will be out this friday. hur-hur. i dont want to die just yet. i hope i will not disappoint myself, my own expectations, and my future. i know the route i want to go, and all i can hope for is for everything to go well, exams to surpass my expectations, and land myself in university. yada yada, it all goes back to studying and working towards my goals and what not. but what can i say? who doesnt dream of reaching that somewhere without having to work so hard for it, who doesnt dream of being what you want to be... i know where i want to head now, and nope, its no longer paediatrics. i'm not giving up my dreams, but its a matter of facing reality. there's simply no way i can reach there. i know myself and am depressed by what i know. haha, i still remember kingshaw! and hooper. the two guys who dominated our sec 3 and 4 lives.

learning journey tomorrow, but i dont want to miss training. =( only 8 trainings left, apparently, before nationals. i'm oh-so-screwed.

and i dont think i should be in front of this screen any longer. in an attempt and reduce the to-do list, i bid farewell to the internet.


it all goes to show what it means to you. i know.