bleh. i'm dead tired.. whole weekend was busy, busy, busy.

AH training yest was fine, since i went late- after kidsread at pasir ris family care centre. imagine if i went in the morning.. the rest were like zombies. reached home at 10.30pm last night.
today was long................ woke up super early for a sunday morning. RAH. i'm out of the house at 7.30am.. and its so quiet on the roads! but it was nice and peaceful. =)

i think AH training really enriched me alot? i mean, i meet lots of people from everywhere, and they're all older than me.. it's a whole new experience for me, since i dont hang around with my usual school mates but make new friends out of school. i feel OLD. hahahaha. it like an exchange thing more than workshop since we talk about each other's life, background, problems and all.. and, i feel so at ease with them. i dont know why, i'm supposed to feel shy, alien and all since they're strangers, but man. these people are all so warm and friendly that we all feel at home with each other. and my little group of friends there are like ALL ngee ann poly year 2 students- all a year older than me. haha. its strange how they are all in the same school but dont know each other, and we kind of made friends on the first day. had a great time with them during lunch today- natalie, valerie, winnie, manpreet, and tharuka. and yes, they feed us alot. haha. we have breaks every 2 hours. lol.

and group work's fun too. my group's quite quiet at times, but they're fun-loving people. we have a lot of laughs listening to each others answers. yun ying, kelvin, maximilion and jo our facilitator. i've learnt alot through these two days, and though i was super tired the whole day, i have to admit i'm looking forward to our next session. =) =) =)

i have so many thoughts about this, but i guess its too overwhelming to put everything into words now. i feel like i now know how to go about helping people, the to-dos and not-to-dos, and even my inner self. and many layers of the ice-burg, and depths, and feelings.. and a new chinese word. =) haha. TING. as in listen that ting. not the simple form that we ALL know, but the old version. haha. the form thats so complicated and long. the olden form consists of the ear, the eyes, and the heart. the ear's the king, and we use our eyes to look out, and listen with our heart. come to think of it, TING now has a KOU. mouth. like why in the world do we need our mouth to listen?!?!?! hahaha. some mistakes in the translation and simplifying process i guess. if you listen with your mouth, then i would rather you just shut up. because we can only listen with our ears and our hearts.

i've learnt alot, it was truly an enriching experience. one that i will never forget, one that made me thankful that i was accepted. if i didnt join, i will regret. lol. but i dont know if i can do my best when the time comes.. i dont doubt my abilities, i have confidence that i can make a difference, i mean that's our purpose in the first place. but i'm not sure if i might end up harming or confusing the counsellee. or maybe, i'm afraid.

oh wells, even after early mornings the whole weekend, i still cant get my beauty sleep since we have PW with mrs koh tomorrow morning at 8. RAH. and wed's OP dry run for my group. OMG. friday's chinese A's!!!!!!! omg. ok, i'm officially dead. in the midst of everything, it only occured to me now that A's is just FIVE days away. how wonderful. and PW's just 2 days before A's. hur-hur.

on a lighter note, something to look forward to: the evergreen ice-cream man's gang outing! hurray. my lovelies, I MISS YOU ALL! hope everyone's free. =)

alright. night to all. a long day is ahead. once again.




thank you God, for guiding me through everything, for bringing me together with everyone that i have met, for giving me this opportunity, for all that i have gained-be it friends, knowledge, a new experience.. thank you.